Now, this is going to sound very snotty, I understand. But.... I've never failed anything. I've never gotten a C on anything in my life (I think) except in P.E. (And that's another story about how I'm so lazy that I will likely die sooner rather than later.)
Those are some hard expectations I've kept for myself. I have over a 3.6 GPA in college and university, and A's in all my classes so far in the semester.
Except one.
This semester was balls. I did not want to be here, and in fact, avoided being here as much as possible. I spent a lot of unnecessary money, and kept getting parking tickets. And I had to break my bedroom door down. I decided at the beginning of the semester, not to come back. (Again, another post on this later.)
So I made my arrangements, which really isn't very difficult. Making arrangements to not go somewhere, is about as simple as saying "I am not coming back." and telling your roommate to find a new roommate, and not registering for classes in the fall.
Anyway, this class. I am enrolled in a history class, titled A History of Music of the 19th and 20th Century. Actually, I have no idea what it's called because I have not gone. There it is! I literally have gone to this class 4 or 5 times. It's twice a week, and I've been in school 15 weeks I think? So there were about 30 classes. And like I said, I've attended maybe 5 at the most. It's just one of those things, where once you stop, it's so hard to start again. Like going to church, or not sleeping 12 hours a night. (Again referencing the P.E. post which will come later.)
It's not even an early class. I just don't care so incredibly much, and somehow skipping every class makes me feel so rebellious. (It's a joke, I'm not rebellious. I worry about heart attacks and I'm 20 years old.) So I went and took the 2nd exam without even looking at the material, and I got a whopping 43%. I laughed. I did. But then he had to curve the grade, and it bumped to like a 60%. Added with the 90% curved grade from the 1st exam that I actually did study for, I have a chance of passing. And that just puts me in a pickle.
Because honestly, now what? My final is tomorrow, there is no way I'm looking at the material, but if I manage a curved D, I may get a C in the class. BUT WAIT. There's this essay. This horrible essay that people freak out about and spend 35 hours in the library on.
So my dilemma is, do I write a piss poor essay, maybe get a D in the class? Or do I do nothing, and consign myself to definite failure?
Other people fail all the time (wow. even I'm offended by writing that.) So why can't I? I'll have 6 A's and an F! Universities have to look at that and laugh, right? Right?
While I debate on this, I suggest looking at this article. (Actually, it's for me to find it easier, it has nothing to do with any of this. I just want mason jars as wedding centerpieces.)
http://www.buzzfeed.com/peggy/41-easy-things-to-do-with-mason-jars
-H.B.
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